I just finished writing an account of my trip to Wicklow, I have to nail a personal account before I edit. I don't think I can write a prolonged piece of writing, a _good_ piece of writing without planning to the fucker. My friend Ahmed says it perverts an idea, conditioning it to an audience, leavening the primal thought to society dilutes it's sincerity. If the skeleton of the essay is in front of you, you control the overall direction of your argument, I think rhetoric functions in such a way that you need to control the emotion in order to make it effective. It does affect sincerity, but sincerity is stubbing your toe. Out of the infinite possible reactions I pick two: "Ouch!" or "Motherfucker!". Ok, to fictionalise stubbing your toe would be alot more interesting, contextualising the event. For instance, Neil Armstrong stubbing his toe on the moon, "one small step for mank... Motherfucker!?". The suggestion of sincerity is more interesting than it's actual existence.

CEOs travel the fucking world twice over, they get free flights encounter exotic cultures, probably experience the better part of Arab culture (Harems, sinful elegance et al), sheer extravagance. They get paid through the eyes to travel. Their experience is singular. But what is the predominant literature to come out of CEOs and international businessmen, with so much time on their hands? Awaken the fucking giant within, A whack on the side of the head: how to improve your creativity, psycho-pictography: How to exploit the miracle of your mind. I am not making these titles up, they are downstairs in my mom's library of books. America's plea for sincere literature has spawned this vast appeal of sincerity that is known as daytime television where real people have real problems. Observe how the word real is used, now take away the adjective from the equation: people have problems. There, doesn't that subtract the excess, boil it down to it's basic line. It's poetic for everyone but the broadcasting companies. Self-help, the asinine production of a society that refuses to help itself.