I think I am incapable of relief. It's true - that feelings become less intense over time, but I am rarely truly at peace. NO, I am not tortured. I do not wear black or cut myself. I just don't feel peaceful. Is that wrong? Is there something actually wrong with me, or is it okay to be this way? I don't mind it. I'm always self-stimulated.

Today is Yan's birthday. Happy Birthday YaNNNN!